pleine lune

Julia, a 19 y/o girl from stockholm, sweden. weak for pastries, old records and peaches. this is like a diary i write in once in a while when i feel the need to. tumblr: @pearlpill

Month: March, 2017

sun, sun, sun, here it comes

 

 

It’s already the end of March and soon the beginning of April, it’s gone by so quickly! Spring has started to blossom and now there’s crocuses everywhere, birds chirping in the trees and sunshine peeking through after what feels like an eternal sleep. Although, as of me writing this, it’s 2 degrees celsius and sleet (is this a correct translation? what I mean is snowy rain!). Typical swedish spring in other words! It alternates between sunshine and warmth and snow and coldness in a matter of days or in some cases even hours (!), and it can do so all the way through April. Very frustrating.

I’ve been feeling pretty ok the last couple of weeks, I think it’s the appearance of the sun and the reawakening of nature that helped me. When I go on walks with my dog around where I live I’m constantly stopping by crocuses and telling my dog to look at them! She either ignores me, tries to eat them or starts randomly barking at nothing to disrupt me because she finds it boring to stand still and wants to keep walking.

Something I’ve always pondered about from now and again is that I’ve always connected emotionally to music and songs sometimes in ways that would almost seem like I’ve experienced things in connection to them that I never actually have, like with some songs I get an overwhelming sense of nostalgia for something I’ve never experienced, odd isn’t it? Or is it common maybe? It could be because I’m a scorpio, since we along with water signs in general tend to be very empathetic and sensitive to emotional auras surrounding people and other creatures, it’s easy for us to connect on a deep emotional level with certain creative mediums, for scorpios it tends to be music.
I would consider myself a relatively rational or realistic person in many aspects but I do believe in astrology (in healthy measure!) and I find solace in it, and I’m really fascinated by it.

Here’s a mini spring-playlist of the songs that are most recently played in my music library!

Dream A Little Dream of Me – The Mama’s and the Papa’s
You Send Me – Aretha Franklin
Daydream – The Lovin’ Spoonful
Julia – The Beatles
The 59th Street Bridge Song (Feelin’ Groovy) – Simon & Garfunkel
Good Times (stereo ver.) – The Rolling Stones
Little Girl – The Illusions
Apple Scruffs – George Harrison
My Best Friend – Jefferson Airplane
Downtown – Marianne Faithfull
Blue Eyes – Don Partridge
On Se Plait – Françoise Hardy
Sweet Thing – Van Morrison

This was a really messy entry but that’s how my mind has been the last couple of days, but not a bad messy, just a light and airy messy! I’m going to go make some tea soon in time for The Great British Bake Off (I looooove that show!) and then read some before I go to sleep, I’ve been awfully tired these last couple of days.
I’ll try to remember to write soon.

As always,
Julia

the times they are a-changin’… too much

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Just recently, a day or two ago, I looked through my photos on my phone and computer and found these photos, dated from roughly 5 years ago til’ just a month or two ago, and I realized that while I’ve changed quite much both appearance wise and psychologically, I’ve also stayed virtually the same. Strange isn’t it? When I look at photos like the first one, that is from 5 years ago, I remember it so vividly, but yet it is so distant – like a dream that you can only remember bits and pieces from, but that you know happened.

What I can say is that I suit longer hair, haha. Will definitely not cut it for a long while.

I was only 14-15 in the first one or two photos, a baby! There was so much I didn’t know, and hadn’t experienced, but I feel I’m still that young, pondering, often times sad little 14 year old. She will always be in me, I think. I don’t really know why I’m so fascinated by this, the change and un-change times bring, I guess it’s a rather abstract yet unforgiving and matter-of-fact concept that I can’t really grasp.

Anyway, I don’t really have an aim with this entry, it’s rather pointless actually. Right now I’m sitting in my newly vacuumed room, listening to the Bryter Layter album by Nick Drake and looking at vintage prints and posters with botanical themes that I plan of framing and putting up in my room. I’ve found quite a few actually, but I can’t buy them all you know, for both practical and economical reasons… I should probably resume my botanical-print-search now.

As always,
Julia

i’ll be the wind, the rain and the sunset

 

It’s strange for me that it’s already March, I feel like everything is moving at a far too fast pace! I do want spring to come, but in a way these past two months has gone by like a whirlwind, even though I haven’t done too much. Strange.

My mood has gone up and down a lot recently and it’s been an awful lot at university and other things with me that have put me down and shifting me towards the bad path. I really miss my friends. I don’t get to meet them all too often since we live two hours away from each other but we always gather when it’s someones birthday (theres eight of us so it’s fairly often) or if we go out for dinner or go to the movies. We celebrated two birthdays just a week or two ago and it was as wonderful as it always is. We’re also planning on going to see the new Beauty and the Beast-movie soon so that I’m looking forward to, it was one of my favorite Disney-movies when I was a child, and now as well.
When I meet them after I’ve been feeling bad I’m filled with love and joy and I sometimes space out when we meet and just think about how much I love them and what beautiful people they are. I feel at home when I’m with them, like I belong somewhere. Now I miss them even more, but I’ll see them relatively soon so it’ll be ok.

Mood-playlist for the week:

America – Simon & Garfunkel
Lay lady lay – Bob Dylan
Goin’ back – The Byrds
April come she will – Simon & Garfunkel
Sleep on the left side – Cornershop
Femme fatale – The Velvet Underground & Nico
Marinade – Dope Lemon
心臓の扉 (Shinzo No Tobira) – Mariah
Fruit tree – Nick Drake
Golden brown – The Stranglers
A most peculiar man – Simon & Garfunkel
Which will – Nick Drake
Honey Bones – Dope Lemon
Your silent face – New Order
Asleep – The Smiths
I want to be alone – Vashti Bunyan
Strolling down the highway – Nick Drake
Satellite of love – Lou Reed

I’ll try to write soon.
As always,
Julia