i’m dappled and drowsy and ready to sleep

by peach1997

Let the morning time drop all it’s petals on me ..

Well, first of all – oh my goodness it’s already 2017. I don’t like new years eve or the ‘celebrating’-stuff because that day and all that it symbolizes quite frankly gives me anxiety (more than usual if you can believe that haha) and more than one existential crisis. I did go over (well, sat on public transport for almost two hours) to my friend’s house with my friend group and had a fun time but still – celebrating that yet another year has passed and you’re getting older is not something I like to do.
And besides, if I’m going to be honest, I didn’t think I’d make it this far.

It’s snowed like crazy here too, there hasn’t been any snow at all except from like a week sometime in November and now, two weeks after Christmas, it’s snowing. Could the snow not just have come some weeks earlier, for the sake of the Christmas spirit? My mother and I had to go grocery shopping today and we literally had to spend fifteen minutes trying to uncover what was supposed to be a car under the giant (GIANT) pile of snow that was on top of and around it. My workout for this month.

Oh and today I also got done with and turned in an essay for university that I’ve been working on for a month, so that feels nice. And I also picked up a package today that contained The Stone Roses debut album from 1989 that I’ve been planning on buying for like a year and finally got so I’m feeling pretty good for being me.

I don’t really know what I’m going to do with this blog, I still want to use it as a diary, but I also feel like I want to do something else on it, something like an album I’ve really enjoyed recently or a song of the day or something with poetry… we’ll see. I do have some albums that I’ve been listening to recently that helps with calming me down and making me float on warm, soft clouds and those I can mention. They are; Quelqu’un m’a dit (2002) by Carla Bruni, Colour Green (recordings from 1970 to 1973 but released 2006) by Sibylle Baier, Chopin: Complete Nocturnes (2010) by Brigitte Engerer, Di Doo Dah (1973) by Jane Birkin, Dreams (1968) by Gabor Szabo, Clinging to a Scheme (2010) by The Radio Dept, Some Things Just Stick In Your Mind (singles and demos from 1964 to 1967 collected and released in 2007) by Vashti Bunyan and Five Leaves Left (1969) by Nick Drake to name a few (with an emphasis on ‘a few’).

Don’t know what else to write. I’ll be here soon again I think, I need this space to write and try to untangle and clear my mind and thoughts. If anyone is reading this I just want to tell you that I’m so proud of you to have made it another year, quite proud of myself too to be honest.

As always,