pleine lune

i'm julia, 19 y/o and from stockholm, sweden. this is an on-and-off cyber diary, sometimes i forget about it for some time, and then i find my way back here. it's sort of a safe space for me, a calm space. i don't know what else to write, so i'll just stop myself here.

Month: January, 2017

golden honey eyes in a grey and cold time

 

Goodness it’s been a while (again..).
I forgot about this blog (again…) and I haven’t been all too cheery anyway and been laying quite low these last couple of weeks. January, especially, is a rather difficult month for me, it feels never ending and is grey, cold, wet and depressing. The only thing positive with this month is that my dogs birthday is on the 19th, but thats about it. And anyway, my mood is severely dependent on the weather and this time of year is usually rather grey and mellow for me.

But I do have some good news, me and my group of friends are going to a place in Croatia this summer! It’s something we’ve wanted and saved up for for a very long time, and I really do look forward to it. I long for honey golden sunshine, water gently washing your feet on the beach, bare legs and flowers and creatures of all kinds being alive and vibrant.

I started a new course in university as well – art history. So far it’s interesting, but unfortunately due to my dark mood the last couple of weeks, I haven’t been able to really enjoy it and be excited about it. Kinda sad.
I just recalled I have a seminar tomorrow.. Hm. I’ll have to read some on the subway to uni tomorrow morning!

As for music, I’ve discovered some new songs and listened to songs that have related with my mood for these last weeks. I’ll make a mini-playlist!

Fleur de lune – Françoise Hardy
So long, Marianne – Leonard Cohen
D.C.B.A – 25 – Jefferson Airplane
Feels like we only go backwards – Tame Impala
Come give me love – Ted Gärdestad
Going back – The Byrds
Apple scruffs – George Harrison
How do you feel? – Jefferson Airplane
Tuesday afternoon – The Moody Blues
Some velvet morning – Nancy Sinatra & Lee Hazlewood
Gimme some lovin’ – The Spencer Davis Group
Which will – Nick Drake
Heaven’s on fire – The Radio Dept.
Julia dream – Pink Floyd
Voila – Françoise Hardy

I’ll try to remember to write here more often.
As always,
Julia

 

 

 

 

i’m dappled and drowsy and ready to sleep

Let the morning time drop all it’s petals on me ..

Well, first of all – oh my goodness it’s already 2017. I don’t like new years eve or the ‘celebrating’-stuff because that day and all that it symbolizes quite frankly gives me anxiety (more than usual if you can believe that haha) and more than one existential crisis. I did go over (well, sat on public transport for almost two hours) to my friend’s house with my friend group and had a fun time but still – celebrating that yet another year has passed and you’re getting older is not something I like to do.
And besides, if I’m going to be honest, I didn’t think I’d make it this far.

It’s snowed like crazy here too, there hasn’t been any snow at all except from like a week sometime in November and now, two weeks after Christmas, it’s snowing. Could the snow not just have come some weeks earlier, for the sake of the Christmas spirit? My mother and I had to go grocery shopping today and we literally had to spend fifteen minutes trying to uncover what was supposed to be a car under the giant (GIANT) pile of snow that was on top of and around it. My workout for this month.

Oh and today I also got done with and turned in an essay for university that I’ve been working on for a month, so that feels nice. And I also picked up a package today that contained The Stone Roses debut album from 1989 that I’ve been planning on buying for like a year and finally got so I’m feeling pretty good for being me.

I don’t really know what I’m going to do with this blog, I still want to use it as a diary, but I also feel like I want to do something else on it, something like an album I’ve really enjoyed recently or a song of the day or something with poetry… we’ll see. I do have some albums that I’ve been listening to recently that helps with calming me down and making me float on warm, soft clouds and those I can mention. They are; Quelqu’un m’a dit (2002) by Carla Bruni, Colour Green (recordings from 1970 to 1973 but released 2006) by Sibylle Baier, Chopin: Complete Nocturnes (2010) by Brigitte Engerer, Di Doo Dah (1973) by Jane Birkin, Dreams (1968) by Gabor Szabo, Clinging to a Scheme (2010) by The Radio Dept, Some Things Just Stick In Your Mind (singles and demos from 1964 to 1967 collected and released in 2007) by Vashti Bunyan and Five Leaves Left (1969) by Nick Drake to name a few (with an emphasis on ‘a few’).

Don’t know what else to write. I’ll be here soon again I think, I need this space to write and try to untangle and clear my mind and thoughts. If anyone is reading this I just want to tell you that I’m so proud of you to have made it another year, quite proud of myself too to be honest.

As always,
Julia