It’s almost 6 pm here when I’m writing this. I feel I’m more inspired to write and create at this time of day, in the afternoon and early evening. It’s dark outside now.
It’s really autumn now, weather wise I mean, and I love it so much. I feel most content and full during autumn, and most connected to nature. Where I live its quite picturesque and close to both water and forests (and gardens and an old mansion which is still well taken care of) so I usually take my dog with me for long, long walks around. I just love everything about autumn; the smell, the acorns and chestnuts (I love them and collect them every autumn) the winds, the mushrooms, the colours, the cold and crisp air, the clothes (layers upon layers) – everything. I sometimes wish I could “pause” it or make it longer so I could appreciate and live in it longer. That would be nice.
I re-read “Wuthering heights” every autumn since I feel it captures the emotions or the essence of autumn and the autumn winds, the autumn mind, and the autumn landscape so perfectly. Right now I’m reading “The miniaturist” but I’ll be finished with it soon. I actually discovered the book through the BBC television adaption of it, which I love very, very much. It’s very much my aesthetic and it appeals to me not only with the heavy use of velvet but with the baroque era and the visuals of that as a whole. It’s also a very powerful and tragic (does this count as a spoiler?) story, but with humor as well. Very much my cup of tea.
There are lots of books I want to read but I want to read them all at once! I have so many books all over my room and eight on my bedside table waiting to be read… But I don’t like to rush through books without really taking in the words fully, because what’s the point then? You might as well not read the book.
In later years I’ve come to appreciate and take interest in certain things, for example my family history, heritage and what have you. I want to know so much about my maternal great grandmother who was Sámi and my maternal great grandfather who, like my grandmother and mother, was a painter. I would want to see his paintings, drawings. I know that he begilded (I had to look this word up in English so I might be using it wrongly) the royal court carriages, which my grandmother is very proud of. I would want to ask my great grandmother about lots of things too, since she had a quite different and not always so easy background and upbringing. I’m hanging up my grandmothers paintings, reading old books from my childhood and playing my grandfathers records, maybe so I could feel closer to him or feel his presence even if he’s not here anymore. It’s very good music too, since he had good taste (and since he was a musician)! When I was younger I didn’t reflect or ponder as much about things like these but I guess that’s only natural.
A close friend of mine just moved to London to study at university and work and the rest of my friend group (we call ourselves “the gang”…) are planning on visiting her sometime maybe next year, and we might go to Scotland too! I’ve wanted to visit Scotland for a long time. I feel the landscape, climate and overall feel of it appeals to me. We also want to go because we love Harry Potter… And I want some Slytherin merch.
I think I’ll end this entry here.
A playlist for golden September:
Lazy calm by Cocteau Twins
Re:stacks by Bon Iver
Fields of gold by Eva Cassidy
Suzanne by Francoise Hardy
End of the night by The Doors
Three hours by Nick Drake
Wash by Bon Iver
Scarborough fair by Simon & Garfunkel
Visa från Utanmyra by Jan Johansson
Blackbird by Nina Simone
Pale blue eyes by The Velvet Underground
I want to be alone by Vashti Bunyan
Blues run the game by Jackson C. Frank
Julia by The Beatles
The dangling conversation by Simon & Garfunkel
Sleep on the left side by Cornershop
I’ll be your mirror by The Velvet Underground
Song for Zula by Phosphorescent
Love will tear us apart by Jose Gonzalez
My baby just cares for me by Nina Simone
I’ll find my way home by Vangelis and Jon Anderson
Thoughts of rain by Nick Drake
Back to the old house by The Smiths
Venus in furs by The Velvet Underground
And the “Graceland” album by Paul Simon as a whole to be honest.
I’ll write soon.